Sep 23, 2006

red-blue

things change, you know? so why am I so (insert word here) by it?

maybe because it was unexpected.

maybe because it doesn't put me in control of the situation.

maybe because I just don't like it changing without my wanting it to.

you tell me.

Sep 11, 2006

what I did the first week of school:

absolutely nothing.

okay, so I guess that's not quite the absolute truth... I worked, I partied, I played hard.

I'm not taking classes this semester so I kind of haven't had a whole lot to be responsible for. no homework, no having to get up at any particular time... I've definitely been spending my time staying up late and sleeping in. and it has definitely been a nice break. however, I'm starting to feel like I need more structure to my life. my room is a mess and that's not acceptable, especially since I'm definitely home enough to have the time to clean it. I think I've checked my email at least... oh... 973 times this week. okay, so that's an exaggeration. but honestly, how tied to a computer do you have to be? I don't have class/homework/etc. so the correct answer is "probably not much."

I met a guy. okay, so we were actually set up on a blind date. by my aunt, uncle, and grandparents, who are in his ward. we went out yesterday... we went to the BYU football game (we won! hooray!) and then dinner (at pizza factory). no chemistry (at least that's my take on it), but he also happens to be 30. or thereabouts. 10 years older than me. old enough to have a child who is baptized. gee. prior to this weekend, the oldest guy I've ever gone out with is almost 27. I'm still a little bit... what's the word? confused?... that my family would set me up with someone so much older than me. I suppose it wouldn't have been such a big deal to me had we had an amazing first date. this was fun, but nothing stellar. I don't know if he'll call me again and to be honest I don't know that I care. he's cool and I wouldn't mind going out with him again but I don't really see it going anywhere and I don't want to waste his time, money, etc. plus, some things he did were kind of awkward.

I think I "partied" every night this week. not partying the way a lot of people would think of it, but I've played with my friends every night this week and been up until at least like... 1 or 2 every night. I love it.

moving back into this ward has been really awesome for me. it's definitely changed a lot and that's kind of hard, but a lot of the people who I really liked are still in, and though a few people that I really liked being around moved out, I'm sure I'll still see them sometimes (like brett). I kind of feel like I've partially started to find my niche here again... and that's a good thing. I think some of the old wardies from last year will be sticking together so that will be fun, but there are some cool new people that I look forward to getting to know. and they're normal. I can appreciate that.

Sep 7, 2006

in the last year, i have...

changed my major 3 times.
moved twice.
changed wards twice.
gone on 3 blind dates.
taken 8 dance classes.
gone to vegas once.
dated 2 guys exclusively.
been in 2 dinner groups.
eaten crab once.
worked 1040 hours.
had 6 in-n-out burgers.
tried out for team 4 times.
gone home twice.
opened 5000+ letters.
purchased 2 pairs of dance shoes.
had my hair cut at least 5 times.
changed my printer cartridge once.
given 1 talk in church.
called my mom 392 times.
gone out with 7 guys at least 4 years older than me...
eaten 1 package of kosher hot dogs.
made 1 quilt.
grown up more than I hoped/wanted to

and

changed my mind a million times.