birthday

Well, I didn't make team and I'm a little bit sad, but I'm mostly okay with it. I've kind of gotten used to not making it but at the same time... I kind of wonder if that's really the thing that I'm supposed to be doing right now. Dance is the first thing I've ever really felt passionate about and it's kind of hard to see past that but it's becoming less important in my life as other things take a more prevalent position. I guess what I'm trying to say is that, even though it's disappointing that the coach doesn't think I'm good enough to make team (and plenty of people have said that I definitely am!), it doesn't matter. Because I know there's a mission for me - something I'm supposed to be doing with my life - right now. I just need to find it. And maybe what seems important to me right now is keeping me from finding it. Or maybe it's something else. But I think it's time for some soul searching again.

But, as Emily Dickinson wrote, "The Sailor cannot see the North, but knows the Needle can."

There's something there for me, I just know it. And just because maybe I can't see the broad picture at this point, it doesn't mean that there isn't something there. I'll find it and I'll excel at whatever it is.